Bye, bye!

For what it was meant to happen? Why do the things happen? I know that the purpose is before established. But I wish it never have been tied to my existance. I believe that I am doomed. I am doomed to be average. The averageness that I carry, is the biggest punishment which my God gaved me. I presume that I can be flawless, but, instead, I am affected in the enormous possible way. I can't live like this. I have nothing. I don't have a girl who loves me, I don't have my parents's support, I don't have a future purpose. The only joy is that I have a couple of friends which care about me. I will rise someday. Even from ashes. Even if I must fight strongly for it. I'm gonna travel now, looking for ways to instruct my aptitudes. Maybe a long pause for my blog. Or not. I'll see. A nice holiday for everybody, not for me, though.